My life's falling apart.
My ex boyfriend is frankly, an ass.
Some people who were my friends really aren't.
Rumors and gossip are petty and it annoys me how involved people get in those. It's silly; grow up.
Just because you have a guy friend doesn't make you cool. It doesn't make you more grown up. Get over it and solve situations more maturely.
One of my friends is in the hospital.
All my friends are drifting away.
Or maybe they just never were good friends in the first place?
The friends that were truly my friends are gone.
I'm moving in three or four weeks.
Hip
Hip
Hooray
OK, sorry. I'm on the actual Internet (besides school stuff) for like the first time in a long time, because I have been so busy running and doing volunteer work and figuring out my future and stuff. So I am absolutely bombarding you with comments.
ReplyDeleteFirst off, I know how you feel. Maybe not all the other stuff, like the ex-boyfriend and gossip and stuff, which I am sure adds to the burden, but I did move about 9 months ago. Honestly, I cannot believe I have been here nine months. It's weird. I feel like I have been here my whole life, yet it feels so short a time. I can truthfully say that I love it here. I loved New Jersey, and here is equally as great for me.
At first I felt like it just wasn't gonna work. Like I was going to have no friends at all until I left for college. But it does. So keep your hopes up and go into it open-minded! Also, if there are any people in the neighborhood that are your age, that is really helpful. My next door neighbor rocks :)
You will be fine. You are not going to die. Worst case scenario, you are going to have a couple awkward weeks. I didn't talk to my lunch table for like 3 weeks, so when I finally did, their jaws dropped to the grubby, french-fry smeared linoleum floor. Just talk to as many people as you can, and the chances of finding that one awesome person are mathematically higher!
I'm not really sure what the friends thing means, but I'm just warning you- when you move, some people are just not going to talk to you anymore. Sad, and the way it is. Trust me, as soon as you move, you know who your friends are. I actually think that someone was friends with me out of pity in NJ. Someone who I thought was one of my best friends. Or maybe they just never turn their phone on. Either or. The summer here was rough. Nobody responded to my texts. Almost nobody, actually. Some did. Some people, you have to be right in front of their face for them to pay attention to you. At least that way you know who really cares about you.
Sorry I wrote a practically complete blog on your blog. I know my advice is dreadfully chipper and stereotypical, and that you really don't need it right now. But I just have been through it, so I think I know where you are coming from.
Gosh, I sound like a school counselor...
-M