Broken Hearts Suck

Yeah because I'm such an idiot, I decided to type a whole post about the idiocy called BREAK UPS. And the suckiness and how it's nearly impossible to continue being friends with a guy who breaks your heart. And not only THAT, but when you try to convince him out of it, and you tell him that you love him, and he's just like, "Yeah." and nothing else, that really hurts, especially if you've been going out for four months. And how even though he knows he completely DESTROYED your heart, he continues to live life happily, which is not possible for you, who has been utterly DESTROYED AND HEART BROKEN. I mean, when you're willing to risk loving someone and giving them the power to hurt you ALOT, you also trust that they WON'T. But of course they hurt you and stomp and stab your heart and then you start writing a huge post about it and then it starts sounding emo.

Hyothetically.

And I mean typically boyfriends and girlfriends kiss in about a week or so, but when you aren't given any opportunities to because of your psychotic parents and his psychotic schedule, you expect him to be understanding and wait, because hey, aren't you waiting for him now? And the thing is, maybe he doesn't love you as much as you do him if he's not willing to wait for you. Or maybe he is and you've been slowly hurting him, hence making him uncaring, though really he hurts too much. And anyway, so you expect him to be understanding, and I mean, he should understand that you wanna kiss him, but seriously kissing at school is kinda weird and sorta skanky and you obviously expect him to understand that.

Which, unfortunately, he doesn't.

And what hurts the most for you, after you break up with your boyfriend which is now your ex, is that you see him everyday and the sad part is that you still love him and are still willing to let him take you again, and take the risk of letting him break your heart AGAIN.

It's all theoretical.