Today I feel like I was able to reboot my system... Or maybe it was a combination of yesterday and today. In any case, I feel wonderfully relaxed and upbeat for the first time in practically half a year. :)
My theory about this is that I-
Okay, I know that I just completely stopped midsentence, but I just experienced a somewhat odd moment. I just heard the theme song for the cartoon "Johnny Test" playing from the living room. I assumed it was my brother finally getting his butt off the computer and watching TV instead. So I got up to congratulate him (great role model and stuff, I know), and I just see my mother staring blankly at the cartoon on the TV. Then she looks at me. "Why am I watching this?" she asks quickly, then switches the television channel WAY too rapidly.
Alright then.
Anyway, I think my sudden urge to pull myself out of my depressing/depressed (which seem to go hand-in-hand) state was probably because I had the sudden realization that I was absolutely no fun like that. I was constantly beating myself up over things that were completely out of my control. So, in effect, I was also not "carpe diem"-ing... Or seizing the day. Which was my promise to myself.
Ultimately, "life's what you make it", so to speak. (Quoting a certain Disney star here... Can you figure out who?) In a rather morbid way of looking at it- life's pretty darned short. Honestly, you could die any second... A day will never come back. Sometimes, one really needs to take a step back and think: "Is this really important in the grand scheme of things?" "What will I regret more? Doing so-and-so or not doing so-and-so?" ... And the such.
Carpe diem!
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