In Perspective

Wow, just a minute ago I was reading some of my old PRIVATE blogs. (Tough luck if you wanna read them.) Honestly, I think it was strange how OBSESSED I was about so many things. And the way that I wrote was... Strangely different, and personally I think the way that I wrote in the private blogs was a little more revealing about myself. Like, I was slightly more descriptive... I suppose that may be because I was less impatient than I am now.

Also, I guess I seemed to have changed alot. For example, I guess now I am slightly more sarcastic... As well as impulsive. And then there's also the huge change in me: I'm a lot less... Hm how to put it? ... Less bound by the rules. Not just like school rules, parent rules, laws or whatever. Just that I let loose a little. I suppose I was a little more uptight a while ago. Like just two years ago actually. It's actually quite... Amazing if you think about it. Maybe the inner change was brought about by becoming wiser as time went on. (Sure, cheesy I know... But it's obviously true.) Then again, I guess I just became more comfortable in this world. (There is also the fact that my moving date looms closer and closer. Perhaps knowing that I will be uprooted from my currant life makes me want to enjoy life all the more.)

Even though I've only been in existance for 14 years (ack.), I've been through quite a bit. Whoever said that the younger generations have it easier was dreadfully wrong. I don't believe that we children/teens/young people (ha) have it much harder, but I also don't claim that we have easier lives. We just are. In other words, I suppose everyone cries, laughs, smiles, and hurts through life, just as much as any other person. We've all been through our own emotional trauma and joys, though none of our experiences are even remotely the same. Feel free to disagree, but that is my view on this...

Personally, the last three years of my life were pretty special. I really changed mentally, emotionally, and even physically (but that comes with puberty, rofl). Middle school is just a turning point of my life. A transition, I suppose. And I just can't wait for the rest of my life to come. Like all other people, I would not hesitate to freeze time as it is and sustain this contentedness that I feel at this point, yet I want to move on too. There's a lot more in store for me in life- I can just feel it.

It's strange how about a year ago- not even, maybe a few months ago- I was ready to just give up on life because of all the hardships that it's put me through. (I admit that life started to bear down on me. I became.. I suppose, suicidal. Please don't yell at me for this.) Now, my life is honestly being put into perspective. I refuse to give way to life. I want to live it and not run away from it by using death. That would, in my opinion, make me weak. Or rather, establish my cowardice to the world. I would be one of the many that could not bear the weight of the world. I want to be strong. (Who doesn't?) Rather than running away from the difficulties, I embrace them.

I've had my share of harsh obstacles and miracles and love and hate and joy and anger. And a fair amount of sorrow. I'm not mad at the world. Instead of viewing my move to Maryland like I was descending into Hell, I think I will simply accept it. No- that seems passive. How to put it? I suppose I will enjoy life as the wind takes me. Why fight the currants in the air? I'd rather soar through the horizon on the air thermals. I can't wait to see where life takes me.

SIX FLAGSSS

Yep I get to miss school all day tomorrow because of my band trip to Six Flags! And I'll probably use this opportunity to ask someone to the dance... Cuz dude, the dance is only a month-ish away. Oh well, at least I got my dress already!

WEEEEEEEEEEE SIX FLAGS HERE I COMEEE!

Yoooo

Hello world!

"Eres Tu, Maria?" is a strange show.

I am Scarlett O'Hara??

"Don't cut!! Don't cut off my leg!!"

State testing... Joy!

Nobody cares how many times you've been in a concussion. Sheesh.

What a day!

Dress???

I really, really, really need to buy a dress for the dance.
Unfortunately I just went to the mall yesterday. It escaped my mind to find a dress... So I will have to wait a while before I'm allowed to the mall again... Wahhh!!!

How come everyone bought a dress already?? It's in two months people!!! PRESSSUREEEEEEE!!!!

For Sale?

I'm not a fan of For Sale signs. Not just because it declares to the whole world that I am moving, but because it's very inconveniently placed. Walking into a huge sign is NOT fun.

Oh and do rude people realize that they are rude? It's strange... Because maybe they don't. Hence their reoccurring rude-ness.

Oh and here's a project that I did for social studies involving the ever-lovable and yummyy marshmallow peeps!



I did John Reid, Joh Brown, and Sugar's voice! Haha my accents rock... But not really. :)

Here's some bloopers...

Sheet Music!

Been writing music for flute!! Couldn't find some sheet music online, or well anywhere, for some songs, decided to write some myself... Mostly I wrote flute ones because well... I play flute... I can't play anything else ahh!

Okay well it's not copyrighted or anything and I don't plan to get it copyrighted. SHARE THE MUSICAL LOVE!! Here's the flute duet for "Somewhere" by Within Temptation! (Remember to turn off the music on the playlist before you listen to this, lol.)




I imagine that you can transpose that to piano or something, right?

I also have another, it's a 2 flute and piano arrangement, for the song "Tomorrow" by 4tomorrow. It's not quite finished yet.

Uhm I guess this goes without saying, but if you don't know the original songs for these two, look them up. Derrr. Lol. Right. Posting it now.

Thanks!

Uhm gosh wow I overreact alot.

But anyway wanted to thank TheSillyObserver!

For uhm dealing with my random emo-ness, my randomness, my random boredness, and whatnot lol. I miss you too!!!



But anyway. Life goes on.

I should consider switching my mindset to a more optimistic outlook. Uhm. If that were possible.



ANYWAY.

Enough with the drama! It's spring break! Yey! ^-^

Went to Maryland for a few days to go house hunting (weee). For once it was NOT raining or snowing while I was there. Maryland actually doesn't look gross when it's sunny out. :) (No offense to those Marylanders out there. I salute you!!)



Hum I need to start my painting for my project. Procrastination...



THE ENTER KEY IS MY FRIEND.

I need to spend less time on the computer.

Peace! Love! I think I'm going to change the color scheme of this blog so that it's a little less depressing heehee.