BOYFRIENDS ARE STUPID

MY BOYFRIEND IS BEING A COMPLETE NUTCASE!!
Or rather, I am and he's being a @$$.

Well I just need to rant and I gotta say that this relationship is kinda pointless if you think about it... But even more so with the fact that I "can't date until 18" and I'm willing to face being DISOWNED AND KICKED OUT OF THE HOUSE by being with him, yet he refuses to go out to the mall with me... I mean, he WAS the one that pointed out that we needed to see each other more often outside of school.

Which I agree to, hence my offering to meet him at the mall, which he rejected without a good reason. (If you're reading this Michael, I need a better reason than "IDK", okay??)

I mean I don't understand, did I do something wrong? I don't want to be one of those freaky clingy girlfriends that totally grovel at their boyfriend's feet (psssh, like I'd sink that low), but maybe I have unwillingly done that...

Opinion: Does it make me a clingy girlfriend just because I want to text or talk to him over the winter break?

We used to be... Really close, like we'd text 25/7 (yes 25...) and we'd talk on the phone at least once every other day but now it's like he can't even text me ONCE. We told each other EVERYTHING, even what we were doing each and every second (exaggeration, but you get my point), yet now I'm lucky if he even answers me.

I don't think I'm clingy, so maybe it's all HIS fault! Or rather, he is nervous and all since I'm his first girlfriend, but after 3 months, he should be over it by now... Shouldn't he?

Maybe he's sick of me. Maybe he doesn't like me anymore. Maybe he thinks I'm too "outgoing" towards him, aka I always initiate the conversation first, go up to him first, dang I think I was even the one who asked him out! (or was I.... DUN DUN DUN.). Maybe he thinks I'm too demanding.

Or maybe I'm freaking out over nothing. Maybe it's because I "freak out over nothing" so much that he hates me now.

I should probably break up with him, but I don't really have the heart... Or rather I'm kinda afraid to.

Gah I am pathetic! I'm gonna end this post, and if I feel like continuing my blogging today, I will start a new post!